I have officially completed my first week back at school. I opened my
online class 6 days ago and have probably studied 5 hours a day...that
doesn't seem like enough.....does it... ugh! Dan asked me why I don't
study during the day.....haha, I DO! ;) I study non stop and still feel
overwhelmed, like I'm not grasping things. I feel bad that I am taking
"our time" to study...but I am not a person that can't study. I HAVE to
study. First classroom day was Tuesday. I go Tuesday and Thursday nights
for 3 hours a night for Biology. Literally 5th-8th grade biology, but
re-learning this stuff is really not exciting or fun since I was never
into it. You can tell I study when the kiddos are awake because every
few pages i will try and teach Kyla how to write her name or the
alphabet will be written across the pages of my notebook. :) (PS i hate
that this blog automatically changes these into yellow smiley faces!
lol)
I just have to keep in mind my main goal. I want to be a
nurse. I have always thought about it, I started school for it in '06
and wasn't ready or mature enough I guess. I have always had such a want
to help people and have been told by many it would be an excellent
career for me. Then I had such an amazing amazing day the twins were
born. I had a wonderful experience in the hospital and since then I
haven't gotten it out of my mind that Labor and Delivery is where I want
to be. I thought about becoming a doula because they do get to deliver
babies and that's what I want to do! I want to help mothers through
labor and help them getting those babies out! If I can get two out in 2
hours (YES it took that long) ANYONE can do it, and I want to be there
for those mommas! School ended up being an option for me because I was
able to get financial aid to go so I knew this was my window of
opportunity and I couldn't let it pass me up. So here I am, a
FRESHMAN....again...LOL! But this time I know the mistakes I made in the
past and I am not going to make them again. I want this for me, and for
my family! Thanks SO much to everyone who has ENCOURAGED me on facebook
and to my friends and family who have in person. I appreciate your
support more than you know. That's what will help get me through,
because I know this will not be an easy journey!!!! THANK YOU so
much...you are awesome!
A few other things this week...
Thanks
to our lovely friend, Chris, Dan and I got to get out Monday night and
go to the movies (we NEVER do that anymore!) We saw Zero Dark Thirty.
It. Was. AWESOME. I'm going to post a whole thing about that another
day, but for now I'll just say it was SO cool to finally put a visual to
the stories I have been told by Dan and my other Marine friends. You
wanna talk about Heroes....yeah... So we got to do that before I got
into having no life going to school. I go to the gym in the morning to
get enough energy to be able to get through studying all day/going to
class, chasing the kiddos, and doing whatever moms do around the house
all day and whatever else comes up.
Yesterday I went to a
preschool open house with the twins. CRAZY! I can't believe it's that
time already. SCHOOL for my BABIES. Where did my little teeny tiny
babies go??? A few days ago I got a tattoo of their footprints when they
were born (my mom wasn't excited about it lol!) but I was just looking
at it in the mirror and thinking how small they were. I can't believe
how fast they really grow, how amazing they are, and how cool they are
becoming every day :) I am so proud of them. I am really looking forward
to them starting school.
Well I seem to have written a lot so I will end here but I will see y'all again soon!
Xo Emily
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